New Blog

Well since everyone keeps asking me about the "stress", I will just tell you. Me and Kevin are going through the big D and I don't mean Dallas. It's a mutual decision between us. Anyway, so with that said, I am starting a new blog and I may make it private, still trying to decide because I HATE private blogs. Anyway, the blog address is http://gityoblogon.blogspot.com. If you will email me at
bobbybop at gmail dot com and let me know if you still want to read about my ever so exciting life please do so I can add you. I am slowly getting everyone transferred from this blog to the next.
I will keep this one as a back up and post things on how Kevin is doing from time to time while he is gone for Military.
Thanks everyone.

stress...

So I have a lot of stress going on in my life. Some of you may know, others may not. Well I am not going to blab all about it on the internet. Lets just say, there is major stress. So with my new found stress I have been dropping the L.B.'s like MAD! I mean 22 in a month... not too shabby. I also have found a new stress reliever. Working out! Who'da thunk it? I have been working out twice a day... that's right, TWICE! Major stress reliever. And when you have PINK blaring on your ipod... even better. So I decided that I wasn't going to take baby steps into the whole working out thing. I jumped in head first. The first night I walked/ran 2.6 miles. That's the most I have done in 2 months. The following morning I walked again for 1.3 miles (had to cut it short because Ashlyn was ready to get out of the stroller). Then that night I biked 4.2 miles... and could've gone more. I had a burst of energy. THEN this morning I got up and went again for 4.2 miles. I felt like a champ. I am sure that sometime it will kick in and I will be sore, but right now I feel great.
Anyway, I don't recommend this stress to anyone. I do say that it is a great diet though. But it is what it is...

It came... whether I wanted it to or not

Well last Sunday was Ashlyn's 1st birthday. It was so much fun. I can't believe where the year has gone. She is at such a fun stage and has quite the little personality. We just had our families together for a bbq/party. It wasn't too hot of a day and grandma don-don and grandpa dickie's backyard is shaded so it made it that much nicer.
For her birthday we gave Ashlyn her new forward facing carseat and she loves it! What a whole new world there is when you don't have to look at a seat. We also bought her a cute cute dress from Andrea Bell (go to bella-boutique.blogspot.com) and put in your order today. She looked so cute in it. I will get pictures posted soon of it. And we are also going to go have her ears pierced. She has been so sick with a UTI and 103 fever for a week and didn't think she needed to be tortured any more.
Anyway, I look forward to the next year with Ash, and all the ones after that. She is the best baby ever. We love her so much. Happy Birthay ROO!

**new changes to blog coming soon, stay posted**

My turn

Well in about 7 hours from now I will be having someone slit my wrist. Literally. And then they will also slit into my palm. And then when it is all over and done with I will be home snoozing away until it's time to go to Transformers for FREE!!! WOOT WOOT! It should be pretty amazing while I am drugged. Hopefully I don't sleep through the entire thing. Wish me luck!

It's over

My dad's surgeon ended up being too sick to perform the surgery Tuesday morning, which the news came AFTER he had already been doped up. So he went this morning at 6:00, was taken back and 8:15 and surgery was finished around 11:30. The doctor said everything went really well. Now he has to stay overnight in the hospital and comes home tomorrow. Hopefully this will fix my dad's back problems.
Next up... MY surgery! No I am not getting anything bigger or anything sucked out of me, that will be the next surgeries (hopefully). Anyone want to take a shift with Ashlyn since I won't be able to take care of her for at least a week??

SO...

My dad is having some back surgery in the morning. I ask you all to keep him in your prayers. He means THE WORLD to me. I know nothing will go wrong with the surgery because if it did, I am not sure how I would live without him. It's sort of a big surgery so I just ask you to keep him in your thoughts (even if you don't know him). I will post about his surgery later.

quote of the day...

"It only hurts if its true" That means when someone accuses you of something and you get defensive and it probably hurts, then its probably true. When someone is trying to help you and calls you out on something and it hurts you and you think about it so much well its probably true about yourself. Deal with it and accept it.

Forgiveness....

Have you ever had one of those days that didn't start off all to well, and then something else happens and you just EXPLODE? I am sure that we all have and you are lying to yourself if you haven't.
Well mine was about 2 months ago. I am not going to get into it because it is between me and a great friend. If you don't know the story, you never will. I will just say that I was having a bad day (or 2 or 3) and when this thing happened I SNAPPED! Boy did I snap. At the time I was so wrapped up in madness that I didn't even think of the future between the 2 of us. Since then, I will not say I have consumed all my time by thinking of what I had said, but certain things will trigger my memory of what use to be and I tear up. I was watching the funniest movie, and there I was sitting crying throughout the entire thing while being reminded of what I had done to this person.
The day after this happened I received an email from someone who had not emailed me in forever. When I read the headline, I teared up again. Then I watched the video... bring out the water works. Good thing it was only me and Ashlyn around and she didn't know what the crap mom was doing.
The reason that I blog about this subject now, is because I have alot of emotions going on in my head right now, and the first person that I would usually go complain to, I can't.
As many of you know, I have been having mixed emotions about our big move. But the thing that I don't want is to move and still have this between us. I don't even know if this person reads my blog, but if they do... then they do. I just hope all of you can get something out of this video. If it makes you cry, then good. If you have seen it before, watch it again.

xoxoxo
Bobby

T minus 60 days....

Ashlyn with her new Horsey




... until Ashlyn turns 1! I can't believe it. Where has the time gone? She is at such a fun age. She mimicks everything we do. She is a jabber box too. She has her "tiny voice" and her "outside voice". She will yell at you if you aren't paying attention to her and the next minute she will be sitting talking to her doll or something in her tiny voice. She also LOVES to be outside. She just sits and looks at everything. She loves it. She also loves to watch her "signing time" videos. She doesn't move when they are on. And I am proud to say that she can sign "dog", and when you ask her what a doggie says she will tell you. It's so cute. Just tonight we were shopping at Albertsons and she was looking at her baby animal book and she started saying "kitty kitty", in her tiny voice. TOO CUTE! She still has no interest in crawling, she loves to lay on her belly, but doesn't want to crawl. She is bound to walk before crawling. We also bought her a horse jumper and she loves it. I will try to post the video on here.

On to another topic, we have a busy week ahead of us. This Friday, Kevin's step brother Hakan graduates in Cedar, then on Monday we spend Memorial Day in Morgan, Tuesday Kevin's sister Cassie and foster sister Elena graduate from Fremont and Thursday Tristan gets home from his mission!!! We can't wait!!! I will have to take some pics of what we are going to wear to the airport when he arrives. Then Saturday we are going to RMR with my brother Ryan and his family and then Sunday is Tristan's first welcome home. What a busy week!!!




4 generations on Mother's Day: Grandma Don-Don (who Ashlyn is named after), Me, Ashlyn and Grama Nae

It's official!! I'm a military wife!

Friday morning Kevin had to be in Bountiful around 5:15 to head to Salt Lake with SFC Keegan to finish up some paperwork and have his security clearance interview. I left our house around 8, headed to Draper to watch him be sworn in. Well SFC Keegan text me around 9:30 and said that he still wasn't finished yet. So off to IKEA (for the second time this week, note to everyone, DO NOT attempt IKEA with yourself and a 9 1/2 month old who is teething and doesn't want to be in a stroller). Anyway, so I am shopping my little heart away when they call and say to head on over to the National Guard headquarters. So we get there and we walk into this building that is very deceiving from the outside. If you don't know the building I am talking about it is on the East side of the Freeway just before Bangerter with the jet on a stick in front.
Anyway, so we go in and they take Kevin down to get his uniform and then back down to the offices.
So we go in and talk about his contract and things and then they take us back out into the lobby and that is where they swear you in. I had mixed emotions while they were doing this, but the end result was PROUD! It does my heart good to see Kevin in his uniform.
After that we went back into the room to finish some paperwork and in walks Mike... the reason for all of this... sorry you had to miss the swearing in Mike! Anyway, then SFC Keegan took us all to lunch and we talked for a while longer about the upcoming events which are....

Kevin leaves to Boot Camp on Sept 22nd. He actually leaves the 21st to stay overnight in SLC and then leaves the next day. He will be in Ft Jackson, South Carolina for 10 weeks. Then he will head to either Ft Huachuca, AZ for 17 weeks to learn his MOS (Human Intelligence Collector) or Monterrey, CA for 63 weeks to learn his language (which is Arabic). So we will be gone for a while. Me and Ash don't get to go to South Carolina with him, until he graduates, but we will be in AZ and Cali with him. I am so excited to move but at the same time it will kill me to leave OUR families and friends. In case you are wondering about driving out to visit us, both AZ and CA are 13 hours from my house.

Anyway, thanks again to everyone who is supporting us in this adventure. We are excited to see where this will take us. I am excited to have the benefits and hopefully be able to have the so needed surgery on my hands! It has been long overdue.

Thanks again to Runs Fast (Mike) & Ari, about talking to us about this. I hope our bonus for you will come in handy for that little princess you are waiting for. And if you get Abeni while we are gone, you WILL come and bring her to visit us!

And thanks to Holy Smoke in Layton, where all of this started... and your great food!

can I get a WOOT WOOT

Dear ROBYN :

Thank you for your recent application for the Big Game Drawing. Your results are:

Appl # Hunt # Result
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738*** *** GENERAL BUCK SUCCESSFUL for hunt 995 NORTHERN


I AM FINALLY GOING HUNTING!!!!!!! I have had my blue card for almost 5 years, but something has always come up and I haven't been able to go. Well this year I will either be living in Cali or Arizona but will fly home to go, nothing can stop me this time! I am so excited! Leave me a comment of your hunting excursions through a girl's point of view. It's always been just the guys that go and us girl's (plus Kestin, Wyatt & Tyson)who all end up at the Olive Garden while they are gone. Well I will gladly miss that this year. WOOT WOOT!!!!

ROO is 9 months!

Ashlyn at the Treehouse

Ashlyn on the scooter on Easter with Uncle Bud (you can't tell but she is really sick)


Where does the time go? She is already 9 months! She has been such a sick little girl (again) for the last couple of weeks. We took her to the doctor last Friday and she has an ear infection, sore throat, she's been throwing up and her gums are extremely swollen. I wish those darn teeth would just pop through already. She has been teething for about 4 months now... AARGH!

She is at such a fun age. She is the happiest baby, even while sick. She finally shows some interest in crawling. She gets on her hands and knees and scoots backwards. She goes all over the floor that way and I just sit and laugh it is too cute. She also will rock back and forth so I am sure in the next little bit she will be crawling the right way. She also loves to stand. Whenever she is near the computer she stares at it looking for pictures of herself. (They are our screensaver, obviously) She also loves to watch Signing Time and doesn't take her eyes off it. She even dances to it. She loves pattycake and sings along with you. If you aren't paying attention to her she fake coughs or amkes an eh sound to get you to look at her. She also likes to scare the dogs... they are afraid of her. She laughs so hard.

Ash is so fun. I love being a mom. Kevin loves being a dad. It's going to be hard for Kevin to be away from her for 10 weeks, and it's going to be hard to take her away from our families after that for however long we are gone. (we hopefully will know by this time next week)

Thank you to everyone who is supporting us in this adventure in our lives. I know it's what we are suppose to be doing right now, even if I am having a hard time coming to terms with being a Military Wife. I am going to miss all my friends, and hopefully you will all continue to stalk me as I will continue to stalk all of you (except for those who have deleted me... you know who you are)

Happy Birthday Ash!

Good News/ Bad News

So this is going to be a blog about the events in our lives right now.

GOOD NEWS: Ashlyn's eye doctor appointment went REALLY well. The doctor saw no need for glasses as of right now.
BAD NEWS: Because of our family history with eyesight, she has to keep going back.

GOOD NEWS: Elder Cox (Kevin's younger brother Tristan) gets home in 49 days!!!
BAD NEWS: Kevin might not be here for the event.

GOOD NEWS: Kevin is taking the ASVAB test on Tuesday. (When he took it in High School he passed with flying colors and had recruiters knocking on his door)
BAD NEWS: High School was over 12 years ago.

GOOD NEWS: If he passes the ASVAB, he joins the National Guard. :)
BAD NEWS: If he passes the ASVAB, he joins the National Guard. :(

GOOD NEWS: If he scores good on the ASVAB, he can choose pretty much whatever job he wants.
BAD NEWS: If he doesn't get a good score, they tell him what job he can have.

GOOD NEWS: Basic training is ONLY 10 weeks long.
BAD NEWS: He has to leave me and Ashlyn for 10 weeks.

GOOD NEWS: After basic training he will go to school to learn a career.
BAD NEWS: If his school is over 8 weeks (which it most likely will be) we will be moving away with him.

GOOD NEWS: While Kevin is gone I get a housing and food allowance.
BAD NEWS: I don't want to move somewhere and live alone while he is gone.

GOOD NEWS: We get 100% medical and dental coverage!!
BAD NEWS: I have to choose new doctors on base.

GOOD NEWS: He most likely won't have to go to Iraq!!
BAD NEWS: He could be deployed somewhere else.

GOOD NEWS: If he passes the language test, he can go to school to learn a language!
BAD NEWS: We will be living away much longer.

GOOD NEWS: Everyone LOVES a man in uniform.
BAD NEWS: It's not the uniform I was hoping for.

GOOD NEWS: We have prayed our little hearts out that this is the right decision.
BAD NEWS: We have to leave our families while we embark on this adventure.

IN THE ARMY NATIONAL GUARD... YOU CAN!

Good song

So I heard this song on the ACM's tonight and I had tears in my eyes almost the entire time. Mainly because of the upcoming event that is going to happen in me and Kevin's life. I am scared, nervous, excited and also know this is the best for our family right now. I will explain more after we meet with someone on Tuesday. ENJOY!!

Ash's eye

So tomorrow we take Ashlyn down to Primary Children's to meet with Dr Dries, an opthalmologist. I am SO nervous. Her left eye is lazy and our Pediatrician said "that's not a good thing". Bad eye sight runs in our families. I don't want to have to worry about glasses for Ashlyn at such a young age (if they even do that) nor do I want to think of surgery. I mean she is only 8 1/2 months old for pete's sake. ARGH! Wish us luck! And we love prayers too!
p.s. if you look at some of her pictures you can see it... it is so sad cause she is so dang cute.

RANDOM thought for the day

I got this off a friends blog...



Stop, drop and roll does not work in Hell.


and I thought it was great. Be prepared for more random daily thoughts from me.

A day late...

So yesterday was completely hectic and I didn't get to make a post for Ashlyn's 8 month birthday. So here it is... don't you just love her first piggy tails? Yes, I know... she is TOTALLY adorable.

The day my life changed forever

So 17 years ago today, my life changed forever. I was diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes, or type I diabetes. Stupid Disease. I was 12 years old and had no idea what that meant. Here's the story:
In November of 1991 my Grandma Creager was hospitalized. I use to spend EVERY night there with my mom. My mom started noticing how often I was going to the bathroom and that I was extremely thirsty. I also had the flu pretty severe and dropped quite a bit of weight, which no 6th grader needed to lose.
So on Friday March 13th, 1992 my brother picked me up from school and told me that my Grandma had died. I was so sad. My dad's sister and her family flew in for the funeral. On Monday March 16th, I had a doctor's appointment up at Herfordshire with Dr. Wood.
So we get there and we are back in the room and my mom asks him to check my blood sugar. OUCH! not only did they do it once, but they did it twice! It took a few minutes to get the results back but when he came into the room, I knew that something was wrong. He said "You have juvenile diabetes". I was 12, and never heard about that before. My grandma who had just died had it, and I was scared to death! He said that my blood sugars were at 625, not good, and that I needed to get up to the hospital A.S.A.P. So me, mom and dad all left the office, all crying, and drove over to my Grandma's house where everyone was cleaning. We walked in, tear stricken faces, and told them what was going on. My Uncle Cliff was there and he helped my dad give me a blessing. So we head home, I shower, get some things packed... like my favorite barbie and head to the hospital. Still terrified.
We arrive at the St Ben's (Ogden Regional) Monday night and got me all checked in. They checked my blood sugars again and I was still scary high. My mom spent the night with me and the next morning they had me giving myself shots. That first one was a kicker, and I did it in my leg. So scared.
Anyway, fast forward until now and I have been all over the board. I have had the highest blood sugars and been hospitalized. I have had the lowest blood sugars, passed out while driving and wrecked my jeep. I have been severely depressed, even suicidal. And I have been the happiest in my life. I have been crippled as an old lady with neuropathy where I couldn't walk and rode in a wheelchair most places.
I wouldn't change what I have been through with diabetes. I think it has made me stronger and have more sympathy for those with terminal illnesses. I could have a disease much worse than diabetes, so I am thankful that this is all I have. I really want to teach others about this disease. I want to get my R.N. so that I can go on to be a diabetic educator. I understand what others are going through. Lots of people I know that are diabetics have either been so tight with their regimen that they don't know how it is to be "out of control". I was told NEVER to try and get pregnant because they said neither me or the baby would make it through the delivery. Well guess what, I started really caring for myself and I had a very healthy baby. And I plan to have another, but won't push myself beyond 2.
This post is mainly for me. I like to talk about this disease that I use to hide from everyone. I met a little girl the other night that had this little pouch on her pocket and I saw some tubing. I went over and asked her if she had an insulin pump. She said yes and so I showed her mine. She was so excited. She said "mom look! She has one too!" She was only about 6 and had been diagnosed at the age of 4. I told her that only special people got to wear these. We are special, and she made my night.

FIRST family pictures

Stay tuned...

... new ever so adorable pictures of Ashlyn coming soon. I know you can't wait!

Birthday Dinner @ La Ferrovia

From left: Jessica, Holly, Bazzle (Barry), MO (Mande), Me, Kevin, Rob, Tori, Ari, Runs Fast (Mike), Cathy, Wade & Povey (Quent)


So last night I got a group of us together to go to dinner for my birthday (which was last Sunday for those of you who forgot; wink wink) at La Ferrovia. It was SO much fun to be with a group of my closest friends (except Katie & Jared who dogged us for the land of warmth, they are forgiven THIS time). We spent a few hours just sitting eating and B.S.'ing since most of them haven't seen each other for years.
Thanks for the fun evening friends! Let's keep it up and do it more often!

P.S. aren't you glad that I keep in touch with everyone so I can bring us all together for happy times? and food? You are all welcome.

Really? I'm 29?

Well another year has come and gone. I just can't believe that I am 29! Where has the time gone? My birthday was a busy day. We had Kevin's step brother with us for the weekend, my brother Randy and Vicki came to town, and my sister Raelyn was getting back from Kentucky. It was a busy day. We had taco salads for dinner... yummy... then we had Kevin's family and my family over for cake and ice cream. It was a good time. Mom and Raelyn made the best cake called "death by chocolate"... WOWZA'S, it was fab. I got some pretty decent presents too. I didn't get a Barbie, so now I have to go buy my own.
Kevin bought me my BIG GAME HUNTING LICENSE!!! YAY!!! I have had my blue card for 4 years now and I have wanted to go every year but something has come up. Well not this year. I am going with my dad and brothers. (Kevin lost his blue card so he can't hunt this year)
My sister bought me a mirror from RC Willey's (which you should all go on their website and look at the discount section. This mirror was regularly either $300 or $500 and we got it for... $9.99!! Yes, you read that correctly. They have major things on sale there. She also bought me the new Anita Stansfield book "Winds of Hope". I got the first 2 for Christmas from my mom and I just found out there is a 4th book coming out too!! YES!! Anyway, she is also buying me a belt which I am in desperate need of.
Randy and Vicki gave me a gift card to dinner, mmmm.
Then Kevin's family game me some moola so I can go buy me some running shoes. I will announce it right here that I am going to run a 5k on Memorial Day in Syracuse! That's right folks, I am gonna be a runner, but only for a short time. I have always wanted to run a 5k and now I am going to. I am a little nervous, but thanks to a couple of friends suggestions (Tori and Jane) I think I can train to do it right. I don't have any desire like Jennie and Tyson to run 26 miles... Eck, so I will be content with the 5k. Plus, I really need to get back into shape so this will be a double bonus.
Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday. I will be expecting your gifts in the mail.



MO and Holly made me some cute blocks that say Family on the front and Friend on the back. They are purdy talented.

Mom and dad got me a new skirt for church and an adorable angel that is holding a baby. I love it.

Running Shoes

Things we do for pets

Kodi comforting Roxi
Sick little Roxi
What a week... and it's only Thursday. Let me rewind. Monday night I went with my sister to Walmart to get a few things for her trip to Kentucky. Well we forgot our coupons so we had Kevin bring them to us. So after we finished shopping there me and Raelyn had to make one more stop before heading home so we sent Kevin home.
Well when we arrived home I saw the chairs pulled away from the dining table and something on the floor underneath. At first I just saw our socks, which is normal, but then I saw some shining packaging. As Kevin is getting the stuff out we realize that it was the sheets that his Advil Cold & Sinus were on, only it was empty. Instantly my heart sank. We decided that she had eaten 4 pills, not good for dogs.
So Kevin says that we need to induce vomiting. I didn't have a clue how to do this but Kevin did. So he brings Roxi into the bathroom and sticks her in the tub and has the hydrogen peroxide. This made me even sicker. So he holds her in the bathtub and I have to be the mean one that injects it in her mouth. So we do the deed and a few minutes later the heaving begins. If you know me, I don't handle crap like that so out of the bathroom I go.
Well she ends up throwing up again and I tell Kevin that we need to call the ER vet. So I take Roxi in the bedroom with me because she just looks miserable and Kevin calls the vet. Well they say that we need to bring her in. So at midnight, I ask my mom if she would be willing to go lay in our room by Ashlyn so that I can go be with Roxi, if things should turn sour.
So we arrive at the vet and we tell them the story and Dr. Sweeney tells us all the things that could possibly happen to her: ulcers, kidney failure, dehyrdration, loss of appetite, seizures. Now I am already a bawling mess at this point so to hear that just made it worse. I prayed my heart out for little Roxi. Now if you have read previous posts, then you know this isn't the first stupid thing that Roxi has eaten... light bulbs, half pan of brownies, chalk, etc... but this time it really scared me.
So the doctor tells us that the next 24 hours she really need to be monitored for the reasons above and that we need to check her pulse also and make sure that it isn't too slow, or too fast. So they give Roxi her first dose of Charcoal to help filter the poison and a shot of Pepcid AC. Then he tells us that we will need to give her 3 more doses of Charcoal at home every 8 hours, followed by a dose of Pepcid once a day, Misoprostol 3 times a day and a dose of sucralfate 3 times a day also. BUT none of these should be taken together and they should be at least hours apart... and I thought having a baby made you lose sleep.
So we head home and that night was MISERABLE! We decided to let Roxi sleep in our bed because if she was having a seizure we wouldn't know if she slept on her pillow on the floor. So we are sleeping and I feel Roxi bolt to the floor and then she starts heaving... twice. And it looked bloody. I was trying to be a big girl and look but inside I was heaving myself. All the while Ashlyn isn't sleeping good either and was awake every 2 hours. So NO SLEEP THERE EITHER! Well Roxi ended up puking I am guessing about 6 more times in the next few hours. She has also pee'd on the floor 4 times which sucks because she has never had accidents in the house.
Well I will skip ahead, but she has puked everyday, won't eat and trying to give her the meds is retarded. She hates it. She is so lethargic which is sad because she is our playful dog so to see her laying around makes me cry even more. It is also affecting Kodi because she is his buddy and he loves to wrestle with her, but he won't even touch her right now. He just mopes right along the side of her.
The good news, is that we bought some food that comes in what looks like a toothpaste tube and she has successfully kept down 2 teaspoons... for 4 hours. YAY! Hopefully we can keep this going and maybe she will be back to solids by the weekend. Keep your fingers crossed.
Well I love my dogs and I will do anything for them. When we bought our first dog Tugg, who we had to put to sleep at 1 1/2 months because of hydrocephalus, me and Kevin both slept on the kitchen floor next to him. Now I think that is love. I just hope that Roxi progresses more because it is killing Kevin inside too. Roxi is HIS dog. She loves him. And to not even have her give us kisses because she is so sick, just tears us both us inside.
Well that is the big prelude to my birthday weekend. There won't be much celebrating going on around here because we can't leave Roxi alone until she is off her meds... next Monday. UGH!

Albertson's Hot Buy

This was an amazing trip to the store. We got:
5 Crescent Rolls
4 Butter
9 Toaster Strudels
10 Warm Delights
2 Bottles of Tums
6 Tubs of Frosting
10 Boxes of Cereal
4 Cookie Pouches
2 Bags Albertson chips
6 Nature Valley Granola Bars
16 Fruit snacks (all sorts)
5 Cake Mixes
8 Muffin Mixes
2 20 oz Diet Cokes (because we deserved them)

Preferred Savings $102.02
Coupons Tendered $120.50
Total Paid $ 63.56
Total Savings $222.52
Bought 89 items
so if you were to break it down per item, we paid .71 cents an item. Not to SHABBY!!

Ash is 7 months!

I can't believe it! 7 months! She is getting so big and surprises us all the time with the new things that she learns. She is still the best baby. She has been so sick this past little while and she still doesn't fuss. She also has found her voice and LOVES it. It is so cute. I can be rocking her to sleep and she will open her eyes and just start talking away. I am trying to capture it on video and will post it. She is so dang cute. When she wakes up she just starts talking and then as soon as you look into her crib she gets the biggest smile on her face. Oh I could just eat her up.


Just 2 days ago she wouldn't sit up and then yesterday we sat her on the floor to try and get her to do it and she did. She just sat there like a big girl for so long.She also LOVES her tongue. We call this her little Gene Simmons. She is so funny when she sticks it out.
She also likes to drink out of her sippy cup. We also have a little tiny stein that she likes to drink out of. It is about the size of a shot glass and she just devours her drinks out of it.

And what would be a post without funny pictures? We have many pictures of our family in these glasses, so when I stumbled upon them the other day I couldn't pass up the opportunity to put them on Ashlyn.
She was so good to just sit there and let mommy get a good laugh out of it. Happy 7 months ROO! We can't wait to see what you learn next!

house of terror

So this weekend we had my brother and his friend in town and they brought their big dog with them. His name was Fallon and he was a scary dog. Now if you don't know my dogs Kodi, he is a shi-tzu and yorkie mix... but think he is a rottweiler. Roxi is a mini schnauzer... thinks she is a boxer. Well they didn't look so tough with the new dog in their territory. He would kick his legs back and dig like he was a bull... Kodi and Roxi were terrified. They will now be in therapy for years to come after dealing with this massive dog. I have in cluded a picture for you to see this tank....


Yup, a little tiny yorkie. My dogs are babies. Doesn't he look like a Boyd's Bear? Fallon was too cute... and Vicki, you will get my bill for the therapy!

Ash being a big girl

So Ash first rolled over at about 2 weeks old, she almost rolled right off the cabinet but my leg caught her. She has been such a wiggle worm the last little while and we knew that this day would be approaching us fast. Well the first time that she rolled over she did for Kevin. So we all went in to stand around and watch her and NOTHING! I recorded for 20 minutes and she wouldn't do a thing. So then while we were gone shopping Kevin bust out the recorder when she started rolling over and over so he got this. So then when we got home he had her on the floor and we all stood out of sight and she did it! Now she won't stop!! I love it! But I am so sad that she is getting so big... I can't believe it's been almost 7 months! Time Flies... Enjoy my little Roo's video!

Check out Savy Saver

So if you are like me and my sister you LOVE to coupon shop. My sister has this friend who created a website to show us some of her tips on how she saves. Her savings are incredible and yours can be too. So if you want to pop on over or bookmark her page, the link is http://savysaver.blogspot.com. So here is my shout out Cami!

Valentine's Day is when???

So, about a week ago Kevin tells me he "made a mistake" but wouldn't tell me what it was. I was really getting so mad at him because he wouldn't tell me. Well Friday I came up from my grandma's and I look on the table and there is a box that has my name on it from a place called "proflowers". So I open the box up and this is what I found. 2 dozen roses!! So I walk down to see Kevin and he said "That is what I screwed up on. I had a brain fart and thought that Valentine's was on the 2nd". I started laughing so hard. At least he even thought about it. So here are my Groundhog's Day flowers. They are gorgeous. Thanks Babe. Love you.

High school

1. DID YOU DATE SOMEONE FROM YOUR SCHOOL? Just someone? NO I dated lots of someone's from school... The list is too long to name them all.

2.WHAT KIND OF CAR DID YOU DRIVE? I drove the DODGE!!! Yeah, I totally thought I was cool. At least all the guys liked it.

3. DID YOU PASS YOUR DRIVER'S LICENSE TEST YOUR FIRST TRY? Barely. My test was right after Kent's funeral and I was a mess.

4. WERE YOU A PARTY ANIMAL? Define party animal... No I didn't drink or any of that stuff but I was pretty crazy.

5. WERE YOU CONSIDERED A FLIRT? I was more of a TEASE!

6. WERE YOU IN BAND, ORCHESTRA, OR CHOIR? Yup, I was in choir my sophomore year. And President too!!

7. WERE YOU A NERD? No I was an all-around girl.

8. WERE YOU ON ANY VARSITY TEAMS? Varsity loud mouth maybe.

9. DID YOU EVER GET SUSPENDED/EXPELLED? Heck no! Officer Creager was on my side, plus everyone (who didn't know me) thought he was my real dad.

10. CAN YOU STILL SING THE FIGHT SONG? Um, I never could to begin with.

11. WHO WERE YOUR FAVORITE TEACHERS? There are so many... I loved Mr Horne aka "daddy", I liked Teacher Karen (child care), JO (agriculture) Mr Thompson (gym) Deann (dance) and Mr Geoff (choir)... can't think of others at the moment

12. WHERE DID YOU SIT FOR LUNCH? Wherever... either in the cafeteria or I would grab a bite to eat on my way back from the ATC

13. WHAT IS YOUR SCHOOL'S FULL NAME? Fremont High School

14. WHAT IS YOUR SCHOOL'S MASCOT AND COLORS? Wolf, burgundy, blue & silver

15. WHO WAS HOMECOMING ROYALTY? um... who cares? The only one I can remember is the one who wore her tennis shoes under her dress. As for names, again, I don't really care.

16. IF YOU COULD GO BACK AND DO IT AGAIN WOULD YOU? Only because I miss the friendships.

17. WHAT DO YOU REMEMBER MOST ABOUT GRADUATION? I remember the dedication to those who passed on... it was pretty sweet. But I was also bitter because I didn't get to be with my real best friends.

18. WHERE DID YOU GO SENIOR SKIP DAY? I went to school, sadly I had A LOT of credits to make up.

19. WERE YOU IN ANY CLUBS? nope, I really wasn't happy in school so I didn't want to be any more apart of it than necessary.

20. HAVE YOU GAINED SOME WEIGHT SINCE THEN? Well after graduation I lost A LOT of weight and then I gained most of it back when I started caring about my diabetes. But I am slowly, but surely, losing it again.

21. WHO WAS YOUR PROM DATE? Cotillion date? His name was Brandon Anderson and he was from Layton. He was only 16 (yes I robbed the cradle) but I was really into him. And we have stayed friends all these years and he even served his mission with another of my ex's.

22. ARE YOU PLANNING ON GOING TO YOUR HIGH SCHOOL REUNION? I did go to the 10. I was really looking forward to going but then something happened about a week before and so I was pretty unhappy there. I wish we would have a 15 and go have a picnic or something so we can meet everyone's family (hint, hint Natalie)

23. DID YOU HAVE A JOB IN HIGH SCHOOL? not until the middle of senior year, and it was Harmons.

24. WERE YOU AN HONOR STUDENT? hahaha, i never had over a 3.0, until senior year. then it was nothing under a 3.5

25. Did you take Seminary? Yes I did. Bro Hall- sophomore, Bro Hadley- junior and Bro Happy Ditton- senior

26. WHAT WOULD YOU CONSIDER YOUR MOST FUN TIME? I just loved the friendships. Anything with my friends was great. And the dances... especially ALL of us piled into a suburban and playing at West Weber elem.

27. WERE YOU CONSIDERED SHY OR OUTGOING? Definitely not shy.

28. ANY LAST MEMORIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO SHARE? Well a few more fond memories were stealing signs, stealing things off people's houses (roy high rival's houses), dragging the vard, going to Fresh, being friends with everyone, dying our hair, having crush after crush after crush on the guys, not having a care in the world, hanging out at Pilot, dances, stomps, sluffing at Layton at layton and clearfield, going to Sill's for breakfast, going to Big Z's, rodeo's, the fair, dating, dating, dating and causing good mischief.

Happy 6 months ROO!!

So today is Ashlyn's 6 month Birthday. Seriously, where does the time go? She is so much fun and SUCH a happy girl. She still doesn't fuss and it is great. She sleeps at least 9 hours at night and is so close to rolling over... it will be any day now. She also can sit by herself for about 3 seconds. Her favorite game is to grab onto Uncle Bud's goatee and scream, then he screams and she screams even louder. It is so cute. She loves him. We go to the doctor on Friday for her shots and check-up. Not looking forward to that, but at least daddy will be there this time to help comfort her. We also have gone for 4 months with no breathing problems... until tonight. She was upstairs just playing on the floor and she started flailing and arching her back and then her face turned red. So I pick her up and run downstairs and get my mom and sister and we start suctioning her and she just keeps struggling for a breath for about 10 - 15 minutes. It is so scary... for both me and her. ARGH! When will it ever end??
Anyway, happy birthday little ROO... Mommy and Daddy love you so much!

The day I was waiting for....

Now since I am a dancer, I love this guy. I heard the rumor this video was out there and now I found it!!! YAY!!!! ENJOY!!!

WHAT THE $&#*&h&*(&

So Ashlyn starts with sickness 2 1/2 weeks ago... my dad started with the flu yesterday... Kevin started last night... mom started this afternoon... Raelyn started tonight... So by tomorrow it may have succeeded in hitting all of us. AAAAGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!! And I am the one with the weakest immune system. Please pray that I don't get it. I will go postal! Good luck all you "well" people. It's gon' gitcha.

For Tori...

We could've done a lot more of this stuff... together... and got into A LOT of trouble!

(Just copy and paste this to your blog and bold the ones that you HAVE done.)

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland … and Disneyworld!
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo- I did Karaoke!!!
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris (in Vegas)
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child- working on it!!!
16. Had food poisoning
17. -Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty- I at least get to see it in a few months
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept overnight on a train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when your not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden a gondola in Switzerland
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagra Falls in person- again, I get to in a few months!
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen Amish country
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi concentration camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square- countdown has begun!
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car- well at least new to me!
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

100. One cavity or less

MY Feelings.

So I am not one to wear my feelings on my sleeves. I bottle them up and let them fester inside of me until I can't take it anymore. Then I get so far down in negative town that it takes a long time to come back around.
This blog is for me to express MY feelings on. I post what I want and I don't really care if it hurts people's feelings. That is what this post is about. If I offend anyone, too bad so sad. Cry me a river. Build a bridge and get over it.
I guess you could say that lately I have been visiting Negative Town quite often. In fact, they made me honorary Downer-Meister. I have been known to have depression for most of my life. It sucks. I even took meds to which they only made it worse. I saw counselors but knew how to fake it and get through them. I can fake my happiness pretty well... I think.
Anyway, I think what I am feeling is still postpartum depression. I love Ashlyn SO SO SO much and she makes me so happy. I could be in the worst of moods and she can flash me a smile and turn my frown upside down. I waited so long for her to arrive and can't see my life without her. I think that the depression is from always sitting at home doing absolutely nothing, all the time. I can't go for a drive with her because I am so afraid that she will quit breathing on me and I won't even know it. I know that I am missing out on so much because of that. But I love Ashlyn and would do anything for her. Even sit and home and do nothing.
Another thing is, that I miss my friends. All of them. When I do get to see some of you, I feel totally out of the loop at the things you say. I have no clue what you are talking about because you are off doing fun things without me. I am not saying this for any pity. I am stating facts of how I feel. I feel like I am in High School again, or hell, even Junior High when it first started. Is there something wrong with me? It makes me feel as though no one wants to be around me because of my negativity. I understand. I had my heart broken TWICE by guys because of my negativity. I am so happy that they both found girls who truly make them happy and that they don't have to deal with all my B.S. At the same time I am so jealous of them because they are happy. I should be that way, but I am not. I don't know why, I can't change it. I am also greatful for these wives to let me continue to talk to their husbands once in a while. They were, at one point, a big part of my life and I still care for their friendship.
So why can't I just make myself happy you ask? I have tried. I doesn't work.
I sit and think about all the "what if's" and "why's" and it gets me know where. Now I don't share this with a lot of people, but I have tried to end my life. Not recently, but I did. Actually quite a few times. I sit and wonder what made me not go through with it and the answer I keep coming up with, and what I told my counselor, is that there must be something that I know would make me happy and I would miss out on it if I completed the task. So far, it's been Ashlyn. I think that I just needed to wait around a little while and find out what it really was.
I know that I have major issues. I don't need any help to figure that out. I just need to figure out for myself what is important in my life. Do I really care that I am left out of a lot of stuff, or is it just Negative Nancy thinking that I am. Do I try to hold on to friendships that don't really seem to be there anymore? Do I just go sit in my bubble and clean it with windex all day?
I think that these feelings come out more around Christmas time because I really don't care for the Holiday. I care for the meaning behind it with Christ and all, but other than that it could just come and go and I wouldn't mind. I don't remember a lot of happy Christmas' growing up. Dad was never really into it and I am a total daddy's girl so maybe that is where I get it from. Who knows.
Well I am calling a town meeting for those in Negative Town so I will end this now. I am not directing any of this stuff to anyone in particular so don't get your panties in a bunch. Or boxers. Or G's. Or whatever you where. If you ask me who I might be talking about, well I ain't gonna say. These are MY feelings. It's a free country and until the 20th I have my freedom of speach. Obama is gonna take away my hand gun, maybe he will take away my freedom of speach too. If that happens I will still carry my handgun and still say what I want. Where I want. How I want. And who I want to say it to. Okay, I will probably just blog about it.
Love you all who truly care for me and my attitude. It's what makes me who I am.